I gave up early today, and went to bed. Unfortunately, I was so frustrated that even my book couldn't hold my attention, and that's unheard of for me. I will read almost anything. No matter what I'm doing around the house, I carry my book from room to room. I don't leave the house without a book in my purse. Megan is the same way. That's perhaps the most valuable thing I've taught her. When I was a kid, I was pretty unhappy most of the time. My Aunt Lou, who helped raise me, showed me that, no matter how bad real life was, I could escape into another world through a book. I don't think I would have survived a lot of the stuff that happened when I was younger without that escape. I used to imagine myself becoming an author. How do people who don't read fill up their lives?
I mentioned being frustrated. I spent the entire day at my worktable, and it was a complete waste. Nothing went together the way I wanted it to. There seem to be days where everything works, and then days like today. After the first couple of failures, I should have read the writing on the wall. Of course, that made me all the more determined to make things right. I think I get a little too ambitious, and fail to recognize both my own limitations and the limitations of my materials. I want these bird feeders to immediately catch the eye, and completely avoid being "cute". Well, everything I made today was cute!Finally at 7:00, I turned off both soldering irons and made myself walk away. Hence, the frustration!
There, now I have vented - I feel better. I think I'll go back to my book.
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